Stella and her Extra Ultrasounds

This is the blog post where I can't hold it in anymore and just talk about how I'm feeling right now.

I'm not sure how many people actually read my blog anymore, I didn't have a comment for months, but I know I'm not as good at commenting anymore. Really I just need to let it be out there but in a safe way. I have so many people on my friends list on Facebook and I love to see what those people are up to, but this isn't for everyone to know. Before writing this, we've let four people know.

A few weeks ago when we found out for sure that the babe was a little girl, we were told by my good friend that there were some cysts on her brain. At that moment my world stopped. I remember not being able to breathe. She told us not to worry and that this is a very common thing and to not look online. So what do I do? I get home and look online. I thought as long as I stayed off of forums where mothers were talking and just stayed on a medical facts site I'd be fine, and to be honest I am fine. But here is what I've found. This site below is the least scary (most positive) that I found. Even the websites that are medical, like schools and organizations can relay their information in the scariest of ways.

FAQ: Choroid Plexus Cysts

What are choroid plexus cysts?

The choroid plexus is the part of the brain that makes cerebrospinal fluid, the fluid that normally bathes and protects the brain and spinal column. In about 1 to 2 percent of normal babies — 1 out of 50 to 100 — a tiny bubble of fluid is pinched off as the choroid plexus forms. This appears as a cyst inside the choroid plexus at the time of ultrasound. A choroid plexus cyst can be likened to a blister and is not considered a brain abnormality.
What is going to happen to the cyst?
In the vast majority of cases, the cyst resolves or disappears and has no consequences.

These cysts are associated with Trisomy 18 (and don't even look that up!), mainly if they see something wrong with another organ or part of her body. Because of this little Stella is getting some extra ultrasounds. Her ultrasound yesterday showed that all the little cysts have pooled together and made one big one. This is neither a good or a bad sign. This is just what they normally do. She is still small and they will look at her again in four weeks. Also she was being stubborn and wouldn't flip over so the sonographer had to scan her through her spine. She said the heart looked symmetrical which of course is a great sign. She just said there were some shadows from the spine that made it impossible to check those areas.

So this is where we are right now. And I truly feel at peace. I am grateful that Jed is a worthy priesthood holder who was able to give me a comfort blessing. I'm grateful that Heavenly Father knows the worrier that I am and gave such wonderful instructions through that blessing. When I start to think "what if" I just remind myself of that blessing and the calm, peaceful feeling comes.